So here I am contemplating what if, I keep going over the past five months in my head. And I truly believe that had I just stayed with my cousin, or had I stopped her move or had I relocated with her to be her caretaker and not trust that somebody else could provide the … Continue reading What is this?
My Dearest Self, 14- Oh my darling you do not even know! You are not in love, I hope you realize this before its too late. That boy will break your naive little heart. But since you are in fact fourteen just know you will survive it. It may not feel like it at first … Continue reading Dear 14, 15, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, and 24
The other day I realized I am numb. I woke up Saturday morning and as soon as I sat up I thought to myself Im going to go get a tattoo today. And thats exactly what I did once at the shop I just sort of sat in the waiting chair and stared at the … Continue reading I’m Numb
Im trying to keep myself together but nobody sees that aspect, it got me thinking though since when did I start to care about what other people thought of me. I suppose since everyone started to tell me what I'm thinking and feeling its just been bugging me. Since I've been more vocal about wanting … Continue reading Im Trying. I Really Am.
Just a few things I noticed about myself. Im house sitting and I dont know what to do with my time. Some of these are MUST haves and some are just silly to me now that I realize them. People are strange. I got a lot of compliments tonight at work that made me think … Continue reading Boredom Is On Go Tonight.
When shes happy shes really quiet and she likes to go unnoticed I always catch her smiling to herself though when shes incredibly happy its like shes saving the memory for when she goes to more than likely make a parody of it in her notebook. I love this side of her. It can be … Continue reading One of My Sisters
Ha! So along with being afraid of geese my friend Paul is afraid of his children too. One day while hanging out with friends and family his son was throwing rocks into the river and hes only I believe he said five so if you can imagine a five year old boy listening....yeah I know … Continue reading Pauls hit in the face with a Rock story. Lol.
Here I sit again tonight saying goodbye to another person I had so much respect for, one of my dance leaders. I will share minimal details about him because my memories of him belong with me this is something Im slowly learning as I get older. Another thing Im slowly learning is that as I … Continue reading Looking up for answers
I probably have the worst co workers ever and I mean that in a good way. Its a good distraction for me which is why I dont mind the fact he keeps on making me laugh. I have this one his name is Paul and when I first met him he kept a distance and … Continue reading My Friend Paul.
Frogs and crickets making so much noise outside. The clock ticking and the fan is turning making noise inside, my brain is on go tonight. I feel overwhelmed with this life of mine. Working fourteen days in a row. Waiting for my biopsy results has me more curious about everything pertaining to whats important for … Continue reading The Minds on Go